Full-Blown Agony: My Fight With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It was a overcast weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden pain sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid stabs, similar to electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased intensity. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.
The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.
This condition typically begin with intense pain behind one eye that persists up to three hours.
About one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal bouts; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.
What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the figure dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.
One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. âI would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,â she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, like many triggers, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.
Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. âI was very lucky to find such an understanding person,â she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.
Still, the inability to organize life around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. âIt robs you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,â she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described throughout history. âThe earliest account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,â write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.
Historical healing records suggest bizarre remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.
It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient âafflicted with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hoursâ.
The disorder were only officially recognised by global headache committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery which supplies blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the condition explain this.
In 1998, researchers released the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.
In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like âa modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eyeâ. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.
Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. âYou're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,â one says. He works by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode passed.
National guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug administered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some individuals.
But consultant neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: âThe length of the cycle dictates the treatment.â Short bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive treatment only. Longer or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle â an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.
The national guidance need updating to reflect a